EK Dynamic see Kahani -2

Well today after reading what i had written yesterday, was thinking that it will be too much boring to describe and fix the character beforehand. Doesn’t sound exciting to me. Lets do it this way. Take the story in first person mode Dhwani and fix the character as the story proceeds......

And by the way a person character keeps on changing according to the situation. A fat man can out beat the fastest runner provided he has a dog behind him/her.

So here goes the story..........

The world seems to fade around her. It seems like that there is no moment which had gone before and neither does it seems that any moment is waiting to reveal itself to her. It seems like the time is frozen and she is not able to say is she alive, conscious or dead.

Well current situation however doesn’t differ much from her previous life, just waiting and watching as life against her is passing by moment by moment without any thing or something in control.

But this time it was totally different. This time she was not able to say that she was aware where she was or how she had reached in that state.

Everything seems to irrelevant to her and at the same time she has to find herself quick to fix herself a spot in the current situation to be able to say that she is alive and conscious.

A moment then suddenly passed by, looks like to her that it passed in a years time. Everyone was staring at her as to for them she was like the puzzle scrambled infront of them and they have to fix them.  Suddenly a guy infront of her tried to exploit the opportunity of helping the lady infront of him but the fierce look in her eyes holds him to do it.

She was puzzled as to what stopped the guy but at the same time she tried to put both her legs in order and direct them to start moving. Start moving in which direction she was not sure. Right now its not the direction which was important, its the movement which was counting against time. She needs to get out of that place very quickly and then find some time to regain her senses.

Thank goodness,her both legs did not get confused about the directions and started moving towards a single direction.She had seen for people who are mentally challenged have to fight a fierce battle in just doing a simple movement of their legs in one direction. She saw that she was moving towards the gate which was opening automatically when a person reaches a certain distance to it.

This gave huge relief to her as to right now she don’t have the courage or energy to open the gate also.

The windy breeze of early monsoon  almost swept her from her feet. Now she has got a bigger problem as to find out where to go as she was standing in a courtyard of a shopping mall overlooked by 4 floors from all the sides. She felt like trapped damsel. Though she considered herself as an average looking girl but at this time she can treat herself of considering herself as a damsel in distress.

At the same time, some kilometres away from the place, was a closed airconditioned room with no windows.

“ 50 years back US dropped nukes on Japan almost wiping out the entire city. Japan after second world war was on devastated but what happened after 50 years, they got their position back for which they were fighting earlier. Now japan stands at one of the strongest economies of the world.

What exists the difference between me and you gentlemen. The six people felt puzzled as the nature and ferocity of the statement and question thrown at them. They were not used to getting questioned and this somewhat ruffles them.

We all have the same physical organs with two hands, two eyes etc etc. The powerful voice again filled the entire room.You may say the face, his height , weight . But think about a situation in which  you have a clone raised in a laboratory. Then how will you differentiates yourself with him. Its only and only his/her mind which got the answer. Your clone under simulated conditions also will behave differently than you as he is not conditioned or have the same developed and complex evolved mind as compared to you.

So gentleman its only and only your mind which holds the answer and the questions also. 

EK Dynamic see Kahani

Sometimes it gives me such strong feelings and emotions to write but always overcome by the fear as to what to write.

Anyways chalo ek kahani shuru karte hai, kya kahani hai , kya moral hai, kya reason hai kya character hai , kuch bhi decided nahin hai .....sub kuch dynamic hai is kahani mein....na character fix hai, na un character ka koi character fix hai.....kuch bhi pakka nahin hai .....pakka hai to bus itna kee likha hai...kahani aage barhani hai....aur iska ek end hoga....ab end kya hoga mujhe bhi nahin maloom...lets see....kood ja lanka mein beta raam bhali karenge...........

SO lets build the first character.....should start with a female one.. ......adds interest to the starting.......

So there was this female character named Dhwani....(the story of dhwani will tell you later onwards..quite interesting one). She was like a normal medium class girl with every thing of medium rating ...face, intellect, figure etc etc.....She studied in a medium class school and then college in a medium level town.

She never had excelled in anywhere in her life. And also its just in her school she always used to get medium average marks.

So this is the story of one of our character of the dynamic story who was just taking characterisation with medium tag in anything and everything of her and by her and for her.

Oh yes lets name the city also....how about mediumpur....sounds matching with the character also.

So this is the story about some people who never remained some people for their people.

So one day dhwani wake up to find her phone just dismantled ..........

Lets do after this tomorrow.......

where are we heading

Sometimes i feels like to write, but the questions which always pops up in my mind, is what to write and on what topic to write. Why to write,when will be the right time to write etc and etc.

But i think today someone told me to be myself and to be someone who is original which resulted in once again deep diving into myself as to what I am today and what i want to be tomorrow.

Honestly clearly no idea and answers came to me. Then got the idea of atleast to write something, some thing at least. Doesn’t matter what it should be and the only thing that matters is that it should be.

So here i am, writing what i didn’t knew just going with the flow of my emotions, perception as to what to project myself in the words which i am writing. But honestly that attitude who cares kicks in again. And hence i don’t care what i am writing, its just i want to write something.

Today i shouted at my better half for throwing the mobile which i have gifted her. Now realised that the person was important and not the phone which should be important. But what has happened is otherwise, for me ( don’t know about others) the object become more important than the person associated with it. Man seriously digital corruption of our all desires had gone to such levels , didn’t realised that much. Anyways its good feeling that i had realised my mistake and damage repairs doesn’t cost much but seriously feels like if things and life like this continued then where are we heading and to what destination. This was definitely not my destination for which i started walking. Looks like forgotten my path while travelling or mis guided may be perhaps.

Looks like what is clear to me is to spend what i can afford. I cant afford to see movies regularly, cant afford to desire for endless digital game, cant afford to spend my time with digital life, digital friends, and starts feeling good about it.

This is definitely not me and if this is me , then i definitely want to reassess my personae.

Will keep hanging on around now...at least will try to do that.

कम्भाकत यह दिल आज फिर चिल्लाने लगा है .

क्या कहू की आज दिल लिखने को कुछ कर रहा है.
क्यों कहू की दिल कुछ लिखने को क्यों कर रहा है.
गर भी में कहू तो क्या ज़रूरी है की तुम इसे सुनो
लेकिन क्या इस दिल की हमने कभी सूनी है जो इसके कहने पर लिखू.


पता नहीं ऊपर क्या लिखा है, क्यों लिखा है किसे सुनाने को लिखा है, किसे बताने को लिखा है, किसे दिखाने को लिखा है। पता नहीं क्यों आज इस दिल ने इस दिल से कहाँ, की कहाँ कहाँ भटकता रहता है कभी तो फुर्सत हो एक पल की....

कहाँ आ गया हु इस पत्थर के जंगल में, कहाँ खो गया हु, कुछ खबर नहीं, कुछ होश नहीं,
अब तो सब पर भरोसा रहा लेकिन इंसान, इंसानों से भरोसा सा उठ चला है,
अब तो जेब में पढ़ा मोबाइल भरोसा है, लेकिन उससे जब बात करता हु तो जिससे बात करता हु उस पर भरोसा नहीं है।
यह हम कहाँ के लिए चले थे और कहाँ जा रहे है, चलते वक्हत घरवालो ने, मोहल्ले वालो ने दुआए दे थी, अब वोही दुआए जब रंग लाई तो हम्हारे पास उनके लिए ही वक़्त नहीं बचा। यह हम क्यों भाग रहे है इतना, किसके लिए, अपनों के लिए, खैर जाने दो क्या फरक पढ़ता है, किसे कौन ढूँढता है सिवाय इस दिल के,
मगर इस किस्मत का खेल ही खाहियेह की अब तो यह दिल की आवाज़ भी सुनायी देनी बंद हो गयी है। अचा है कम से कम अब मुस्किल तो नहीं होगी इस पत्थर के सेहर में रहने में। और जब यह दिल की आवाज़ बेकाबू होप जायगी तो यहाँ लिख लिया करूँगा। कौन देखने आता है यहाँ।

चलता हु , उम्मीद करता हु की शायद अब भी हाफ़िज़ हो खुदा हमारा ।

One of my best clicks so far..Sandhan Valley Trek

This is one of my so far the best I clicked. This was taken on my trekking trip to Sandhan Valley where I was just a virgin to trekking and there were group of 18 people including my mama who helped me in loosing my virginity. And I guess I am going to remember my suhagraat with mountains forever. Anyways lets not talk about my trekking trip because that’s not what I am about to write. I want to write about this rare photo atleast to me.
Well while looking at the photo creates so many illusion and thoughts in our mind. First reaction is what I got that the working conditions are too tough atleast for me. Sitting in the direct sun and just sieving sand from the stones almost all day is not easy as opposed to sitting in AC and working on PC/ Laptops and cribbing about the work all time.
I think that’s the first reaction which we will get whenever we see someone or meet someone we started comparing our life with the person whom we had met. And see who is at advantage. I sometimes do that and I am not ashamed of telling it because being born in a middle class family we have been conditioned to do that and take out the and be inspired to do better all the time. Never look back, be something, be an example so that others should follow you etc etc.
I think while I was clicking that photo why I clicked it, reasons cannot be explained just felt like to click it. And now I feel this man’s expression is just what you need to understand something about life.
The expression of the man is what appeals to me the most. The controlled facial expression mixed with a sense of indifference plus controlled smiling as to pose for a photo you have to do. No expression of comparison which we generally do as a habit, a sense of indifference mixed with a sense of self esteem is what I feel I can deduce from this photo.
In short this man existed to us and we could feel lucky to be born in a better condition which we think superfluously that we are atleast lucky than this poor guy. But if you look at him you don’t exists at all to him. It doesn’t matters to him form where you came and who you are. He just is not bothered with it at all. I have shot him at very close range which could offend anybody that you are taking his photo or may feel happy that this guy is taking my photo so starts posing and cheering up. But to him it doesn’t matter and the moment we turn our back he is back to work.
Though the communication in scientific language doesn’t happened between him and me but I guess he remained at the giving side and I as a poor fellow cant do nothing but to take it from him one of the biggest lessons in my life. And that lesson couldn’t be written down no matter how skilled you are in writing. It has to be felt from inside that the life is very simple why you idiots are complicating it more and more.
Anyways after writing I am still an idiot and lets see how much I have learnt from him without a single word of communication happening.
That only time will tell ..or why do you think time will tell, time has all the work in the whole world to do so don’t be bothered lets get back tour AC office and cushioned life.
i dont know what to say i am still in a process of exploring this pic.......anyways will not bor you more.....bye bye

mere faltu one liner..jinka matlab mujhe bhi nahin pata....can you help me out

1. gareebe ghalib kee muflisi kya kahiye....kee waqt har insaan kee rooh mein shumaar hai

2.whatever happened happened. couldnt have had happened the other way round and cannot be unhappened so let it be happened whatever happened had happened.

3. "i was lost then i went looking and then i got lost again....and when i was lost , believe me i was totally and absolutely hottt"

4. hasrat-e-husn kee aarzoo liyeh ghumta raha bazar mein
ek zindagee mili thee woh bhi na jaane kahan gum ho gayee......

5. gaflat-e-khwaish hai itni kee zindagi kahan gum hai......mein mar bhi jaaun inko paane mein,phir bhi baigirat zinda rehti hai..

6. Insaan ko apne peene kee, khane kee, rehne kee, zinda rehne kee aukaat nahin bhoolna chahiyeh.
Agar jyada peeyega to ulti karta firega,
Agar jyada khayega to pet pakarh kar ghoomtarahega,
Agar upar urehga karke rahega to kharcho ko rota rahega,
Agar zinda aur khush rehne ke liyeh jitna zaroori hai usse jyada lega to use kamzori bana lega....


७। जिंदा रहने के लियेह क्या करू की बिलकुल जिंदा लगु
इंसान तो हुआ करता था, लेकिन अब बिलकुल इंसान लगु
जब सोयु तो सोते हुए बिलकुल नाशुक्रा लगु
आईना जब भी देखू तो बिलकुल बेफिक्रा लगु

8) kyon hosh sambhalu maalik, nashe mein to sab nazar aate hai

9)faasle kuch is tarah se kum hote rahe humhare darmiyaan kee....... aatee jaatee bus saans sunaaiyee dene lagee....

10) The Profiles are lovely, bright and show-off,

But I still have friends to add and keep,

And miles to go before I log off,

And miles to go before I log off

-----------------------Robert Frost Facebook.................

11)just realised few days back...my career doesnt have graph....

it only have bounces........

12)when there is a wills...there is a way......

and where there is a way ...there is always a chai kee dukaan...
Go for it.....

13)Three Greatest Kings of all time....

Smo-King
Drin-King
Fuc-King
....
what you were thinking before.....

14)beauty is in the eyes of beholder and when you kiss you close your eyes...so it doesnt really matter whom you are kissing.....just keep kissing

15)why a men wearing a watch is never called a watchmen.............
and your watchmen never wears a watch....................

16)A humble request to Dear 2011,

You better be a good as***** year. 2010 really sucked.
& since were all dying in 2012, you better rockk !

Please, Please ,Please otherwise.......f********** off...........

17) Everyday begins with History..........
On road becomes geography...........
In office becomes chemistry...........
In Evening becomes sociology...........
In Night becomes biology..............
and then ................it repeats again........

18)getting centi-mental about nothing...or kilo--mental about everything......

19) zindagee tu hee bata tujhe pyaar kab karu......

teri har ek shaam mujhe rula sa deti hai.................

har aahat par laga kiyeh kee tu hai aayee

teri har ummeed mujhe jhootla sa deti hai...

20) to live happy........"dont tell anyone when you are successful.....and dont leave anyone when you are not............"

21) getting lost in trying not to get lost in what i was trying to do ...however fate doesnt seems to get lost without a sense of irony in it........................

22)Sometimes Its Better to be Bitter...Atleast you dont get surrounded by Ants who eats you up to the very core of you and you keep on thinking that you have a huge fan following....................

Wow what an idea sirjee............

The Retreat...............

Sometimes there are times of your time in which you have no time for your personal time. The only time which you have by yourself is the one which you have it on your wrist i.e. nothing but the time piece. I still remembered when one asked me why instead of having so exclusive collections why not wear them( actually I want to tell you I used to have a soft corner for watches so collected many and disposed all except one which I bought with my first salary). Anyways when I was asked or rather forced upon the fact that I have to come on time and for it I have to wear a watch, then I replied to that gentlemen that I don’t believe in irony of life. Then he asked me to elaborate more into it so I said in hindi that hum sub waqt ko apne haath mein lekar ghoomte hai magar kismet ka majaaq dekhiye kee waqt kisi ke haath mein nahin aata (we all roam in this world by taking time in hand-wearing wrist watch, but the irony of fate seems like that no one is able to get at its disposal). So that was my bushido to him or rather I never interfere into others life and when attacked by some tom dick and harry then I prefer hitting them very hard otherwise these kind of people start taking you for a ride and granted that yes I am your guardian into this world.
Anyways I think that I am diverting from the topic. So I was saying in this world full of time for everything else but to ourself I decided to become an outcast and turn around by 180 degree. Now I had decided not to have time for everything else but myself. So I was thinking about sort of revisiting my life, who was I and what kind of life I used to live when I was growing up and what kind of people I was surrounded with. May be I am doing it now so at later stage when I will be old and useless but nothing to look back in your life, may be at that time it will come handy to me. So and for many other reasons I decided to write about my revisits….may be random events but which had extremely important part of my life.
So form now onwards I will be retreating and reclaiming back the territories which I have left after I had won them. And I think we men are like that only we love to capture new and newer boundaries but we never know how to rule them. Similarly our life is also like that we keep on moving ahead with our quest for horizon that we never cared what we have left behind and we should be able to rule them not just keep winning. The one lesson which I had learned from history Akbar and Ashoka. For them winning is less important to ruling similarly in life knowing your roots is more important than just rising up and up and sky is the limit etc etc. So I am now more interested in knowing more and more about myself rather knowing about the world and others.
Oh yes by the way in this retreat first and foremost will be coming my romantic part of my kingdom, reason it is still very fresh in my mind and that’s my first choice.
So now the episode about the girls in my life apart from my family.